Jun 30, 2018

blood and water

i brought , a book by Richard S. Kim, to Bangladesh. Inspired by the book's title and Kim's writing about Korean immigrant nationalism during the colonial era, I had a chance to think about the quest for statehood of the Rohingya in Bangladesh. my spontaneous writing turned into a short essay:

The quest for statehood is, to say the least, a desire of belonging of an individual to a cohort. It is perhaps a trivial desire for many of us who are born with citizenship, a birthmark that we do not choose but are given with. Yet for many others, it is a prohibited privilege that they feel and are incapacitated without. The static notion of statehood can become a contemplative question when we think about the quest for statehood. The quest for statehood is like a secular journey that we are all part of whether we have citizenship or not. I personally believe that the quest for statehood is a spiritual journey that we can partake with a desire of transcending the notion of the self. As my 6 weeks in the Rohingya refugee camps in Bangladesh are coming to an "end," a juncture before the second term of this year unfolds, I call the spirit of contemplation to blurt out my confusion.

The stateless status of the Rohingya makes the government of Myanmar as a colonizer and the government of Bangladesh as an arbitrary agent that partakes in both supporting and discriminating the Rohingya. The government of Bangladesh has supported various channels that support the Rohingya - they have opened up their borders and are have hosted nearly 1 million Rohingya refugees since 1970s. At the same time, their willingness to provide humanitarian support for their co-Muslim Rohingya community excludes invitation of them to be co-citizens of Bangladesh. Here is a common idiom that justifies this: Blood thicker than water. Well, is it? The sparsely green hill that was once a wildlife sanctuary is now overcrowded by Rohingya refugees. There is a growing number of the children of the first generation refugees, who are now entering their 20s - a period of lifetime where enthusiasm for life spills out of the body through various ups and turns of unexpected episodes called experience.
The quest for statehood transcends one's life time: It is also a prenatal and posthumous right that generations of people grow a relationship with by loving, hating and wrestling with it. While fully rooted in Bengali territory from birth, the young Rohingya - the uninvited other - have no chance to practice this right. The only way to seek an opportunity for studying further is by hiding their Rohingya identity. A 19-year Rohingya translator told me that "We (the Rohingya) have to be good at lying." She has learned to play by the 'rule.' The uninvited other hangs collectively in the air like rootless air plants at the joint hands of the governments of Bangladesh and Myanmar. While the government of Myanmar is the master architect behind this tragedy of Rohingya refugees who have been in a long exodus from their homeland, the government of Bangladesh is not any less responsible for the growing population of the stateless young Rohingya people who speak little or no Burmese but are fluent in Bengali language and are fully capable of adjusting in Bengali society.

The young Rohingya without national identification card cannot pursuit education beyond the 10th grade. In camps, although the official education ends at the 5th grade, Rohingya people often send their daughters and sons to private masters in their residential camp, who teach English, Math, and Bengali at (unregistered) tutorial centers or their houses. All Rohingya people that I have met who spoke good English studied with a private master. Yet, despite of their impressive level of excellence in English and mature work ethic, they are barred from studying further or building careers because they are deprived of citizenship. In the mean time, the government of Bangladesh continues to call for a humane repatriation of the Rohingya refugees back to Burma to the international community - this includes the young Rohingya who were born in Bangladesh and culturally identify themselves as Bengali. It is bewildering to think about the lonesome decades that the young Rohingya have had to withstand and would have to more in coming years.

Statehood is an idiosyncratic concept, in my opinion, because it grounds our identity firmly by imbuing a sense of belonging, while it discretely nurtures an attitude of exclusion towards others, who do not accord with the norms of the statehood with which one is familiar. While our conscience might dictate tolerance and benevolence in encountering differences, our learned behaviors often fringe, struggling to dismantle one’s own prejudices and assumptions about them: While it is easy to celebrate differences on an ideological level, it is difficult to truly embrace them on a daily basis. Does our "naturally human" tendency to discriminate the other justify that blood is thicker than water?

What does it take to dilute the blood?

Jan 20, 2018

Never To Forget by Arundhati Roy

Never To Forget by Arundhati Roy

To love.
To be loved.
To never forget your own insignificance,
To never get used to the unspeakable violence
and the vulgar disparity of life around you.
To seek joy in the saddest places.
To pursue beauty to its lair.
To never simplify what is complicated
or complicate what is simple.
To respect strength, never power.
Above all, to watch.
To try and understand.
To never look away.
And never, never to forget.

절대 잊지 말 것

사랑하기를.
사랑받기를.
내 존재의 가치를.
형언할 수 없는 폭력에 굴복하지 않을 것과 
비속한 방법으로 삶의 가치를 가르는 풍경에 익숙해 지지 않을 것.
가장 슬픈 장소에서 즐거움을 발견하기를.
감추어진 곳에서 미(美)를 추구하기를.
복잡한 것을 단순화 하지 말 것과 
단순한 것을 복잡하게 하지 말 것을. 
힘을 존중하되 권력은 절대 아니라는 것을.
무엇보다도 바라보기를.
노력하고 이해하기를.
외면하지 않기를.
그리고 절대, 절대 잊지 않기를. 

Jan 10, 2018

from James Baldwin's "Letter from a Region in My Mind"

We are capable of bearing a great burden, once we discover that the burden is reality and arrive where reality is.

Perhaps the whole root of our trouble, the human trouble, is that we will sacrifice all the beauty of our lives, will imprison ourselves in totems, crosses, blood sacrifices, steeples, mosques, races, armies, flags, nations, in order to deny the fact of death, which is the only fact we have.

There are too many things we do not wish to know about ourselves.

Love takes off the masks that we fear we cannot live without and know we cannot live within.